“Still don’t know what I was waitin’ for…” David Bowie is in my head this morning.
2015 is in my head this morning.
It’s just another year, right? Right. No big deal…I’m even past the whole resolution thing. It’s not a resolution I need – it’s a paradigm shift. It’s been percolating all year – a loop tape in the background of everything else going on around me. So what am I waiting for?
Turn and face the strange…
I love what I do. I really do. I am grateful for it every day. But there is something else pushing through – something that is literally pounding on my inner door…louder and louder every day. I push back. I tell it any number of stories of why it doesn’t have a place at the table. Time. Money. Fear.
But I have these women friends – the kind of friends who are transparent, and truthful. The kind of friends that don’t buy your bullshit. The kind of friends who show up, and act as a sounding board and a mirror. They have given their time and energy to caring enough to address it and help me hash through it and articulate it.
This is what I want.
I want to create conceptual, inspirational imagery – through collaboration, that will have a ripple effect on those who consume it, and I want to write more.
Maybe it’s getting older. That desire to have what you do for a living actually help someone else besides yourself in some way. I want to be more of an inspiration to others who are sitting on their dreams and talents out of fear or uncertainty. I want to create images that tell a story, that lift you up, that remind you of the every day things we have to be grateful for. I’m not entirely sure how that is going to look, but I do know I love creating conceptual images and I know I love to write.
So I’m going to start there. (Start where you are, right?)
So 2015 will see a consolidation of my current websites, and the launch of an entirely new one. A different name, and an entirely different purpose. Yes – I still shoot weddings, boudoir, and portraits – and love it. But I’m bringing something new to the table. Once it’s up, I’d love to hear what you think.
And a huge thank you to all my clients who have made every year so amazing. Your stories are part of my story, and I am so grateful for that.
And to Nellie and Julie…thanks for believing, and for pushing me.
I wish everyone a year of exploration and joy!